well as you can tell something happened in my life or else i wouldn't be updating.

After me n seth got back from new york we broke up. i miss him so much but i'm movin on. it's for the best :( maybe. but yeah. new york was fun but then again it wasn't. one of my best friends moved and i miss her so much!

Seth was a big part of my life. i just hope that he will understand that. I still love him and i will always love him. he still means the world to me. i still care about him so much. i still cry every night b/c i miss him. but idk ne more.

but ne wayz off the subject of seth. i like somebody else but i know nothin will happen. so why even try?

idk why i'm still on this planet. nobody cares about me.

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hey guys. i think this is my last time updating this one. if i really need to vent out i will write in here but this is prolly my last update. so yeah i'll just go ahead and tell you everything that is going on in my life right now. me n seth are back together. idk if i put that in my last update but yeah we are. prom is 8 days away. i'm so nervous. my first prom ever! i'm excited but yet again really nervous. my prom dress is yellow. http://www.debshops.com/Fashion/ViewDetail.asp?page=1&CatID=112&CENID=2243# go there if you wanna see it. and i'm leaving for new york in a week and 3 days. yeah i'm excited for that too i get to see RENT on broadway!!!!!!!!! so fucking excited!! i get out of iowa again. so yeah. i'm going to be gone April 24-29. so yeah if you really need to get ahold of me call the cell maybe if i still have it! so yeah. i'm trying to find a job and i need to sell my car but i'm going to sell it to the junk yard. it's a piece of shit. i love that car tho! but yeah the only time i'm going to update now is if i really need to vent out. so yeah i'll still update my icons and quotes sites but that won't be very often b/c my computer got a virus so yeah it's getting fixed. but then i'll update it. like every week. once a week. something like that. but yeah so i'll just leave you guys w/ this for now. so yeah if i'm depressed/pissed off then i'll update so i can vent! but other than that i'm not updating just for the hell of it. xanga is getting old but hey at least i'm still here! love ya guys tia

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hey guys! what's up? nmh just in study hall. wow i haven't updated in forever. a lot has happened since then. yeah. not that much but still a lot to me. me n seth broke up again. we both decided it. we're doing this to see if it will help us. i really hope it does. i miss him so much. we hang out still and we're still friends. but yeah. friday is the dance. lmao it seems like i only update when there is a dance. but yeah. ne wayz. i have nobody to go w/ well heather and them but i mean like a date. oh well. i'll just go w/ my friends and have fun! yeah i'm excited. but i'm going to go. i will write sometime soon. it feels like xanga is going dead. but don't worry xanga i'll still be here for you! lol laterz luv ya guys. tia

p.s. oh yeah other things that happened. my dad has skin cancer my mom broke her leg i got my cell phone so if you want my number just tell me and i'll give it to you. maybe. if i talk to you and i like you. but yeah. i'm gonna go now for real. lol